My relationship with my new medication gabapentin (Neurontin) was short lived. I still take it. It still cuts the fibro pain, which is great I admit.
I went out to the library and a thrift store and had three walks (which I had been working up to)...and then I crashed so hard that I woke up one day (yesterday) and realized I had been asleep for a week and a half, waking only an hour or so each day, and totally forgot my Enbrel injection. I kept thinking it was the same week, I had already taken it. Yeah, no.
So now comes the grieving. You can't help it with RA. You crash and burn like someone strung out on drugs when you are really strung out on exhaustion from pain and overall poor sleep. You crash and you wake out of a coma. So you cry. You cry because it is a week later. You cry because this is your life until you get the right medication combo. You cry because you know it only a matter of time before you crash and burn. Again.
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