RA Post: I Don't Remember

I don't remember now. I wondered how long it would be before I forgot. I don't remember now.
Two years is apparently the timeframe. I remembered vividly driving when and where I wished. Doing what I wanted physically, for the most part. tiredness was usually what stopped me.  
I don't remember now.
It's more like remembering a dream. Or a book. Something that never really happened.
I've been keeping calendars. Blacking out days I'm sick in bed, half a black out for days I'm mostly too sick to do much. Keeping track of what I do do, how much exercise.
Pretty much I am sick two weeks and four to six days a month, from the best I can tell.  
I don't remember anymore. There's just a lot of pain, a lot of nausea, and a lot of sleep.