Grateful

<sup>More Precious than Silver. J.E. Tada

 

2 cor 7:10</sup> Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I would say it this way: I would rather be in this wheelchair knowing Him than on my feet without Him. Everything else, everything worldly, pales in comparison.

My life has change 100%. I miss out on a lot of events, because I either cannot make it that day or cannot stay very long. I cannot be a nurse now, and I do not know if I can ever return to the job I loved. 
Yet, at this point, nearly a year after I woke up with rheumatoid arthritis, I am nearly ok with not being able to work, not driving, all the many things that I did but do not. I am 25% the person I was. 

Yet I am 100% the person I am now...what with spending more time in Bible studies, and a deeper relationship with my RA sister, my non-RA sister, my friends, and all my "parents" and parents. I do not want to be sick, to be limited in what I do. But there are many things that I do now and did not.

I would rather have rheumatoid arthritis and know God, and know Him deeper, than be free of illness and have less of a relationship.