RA Post: Iritis

It's always something with autoimmune. Most people get secondary diseases, or super fun complications. The worst I heard of for RA was someone's brain being attacked by the white blood cells....and there was nothing they could do, seemingly.
I have joined the club by having psoriatic arthritis. Basically RA, but with a skin addition and lots of nail damage. 
Now enter iritis. So now my immune system has decided to attack my eyes, Fortunately at this point the anterior (front) chamber of my eye is still separate from the posterior. The white blood cells are mainly in the front of my eye, getting into the iris of my eye, and causing a huge amount of ACHE! 
The only thing that helps is sunglasses, to keep the white blood cells from being scraped across my iris as the muscle contracts or relaxes, and sometimes even putting gauze across the eye, held in place by the glasses so my eye is shut and NO light can get in. 
I also am taking steroid eye drops. Which have the fun benefit of possibly making you blind just like the iritis. Catch 22. Use the steroids as little as possible. Boy, they help, too. Aching eyes are right up there with a toothache..only no pain medication seems to help.

I have always always been scared of being blind. I hate the dark. I hate pitch-black dark. If there is any light, I am fine. Stars are enough. So here I am facing one of the worst fears. Then I started thinking about my studying---both medical and theological. How would I manage that? I write notes all over the place. And even if I had a Dragon system to speak into and books that read themselves to me, it would be so hard to find the notation I wanted. I have a bit of a photographic memory, so I can find things based on what the page looked like. It had a stain. I underlined it with a pink highlighter. It was before this section, it was after that. 

Just hang on regardless. Somehow God uses us all---even if it is simply to sit in the light of Him. Not all are called to be missionaries to a far away land, not all are called to be pastors. But we are all called to honor and love Him. And as my last post pointed out, that is a pretty important thing.